The Calling of the Night

The dark night of the soul is tiring and sweet. The night awakes the desires of the things that hold your heart captive and it gives you safety at the same time. You know in the darkest places their is still a light shining in the midst of the pain, confusion, longing, and tears.  Its the cry of your heart that produces the pleasure of life.  Its the beauty that fills your soul that makes you complete and whole. Its in the journey that you find your true beauty,  your soul is calling you into a deeper awaking of the heart. Though the journey is hard it is sweet and rich. I take with me a desire to go deeper into the dark forest and be guided by the light.  To find a piece of my missing soul and embrace the journey all over again.

Moments of Awakening

I am trying to get to the place of being present in each moment. I live in stress each moment wondering if I can pay this bill or if I can finish all my projects I have laid out in my head. The thoughts in my head are always racing of what to do or how to plan so I won't get hurt. It’s like a 3 ring circus in my mind. Moments get lost in thoughts and movements of my heart get pushed aside. I begin to wonder if I can control any movement of my heart or mind.  I am going to try to stop and take a deep breathe and think of only of the moment before me. Instead of looking at the future every waking moment of each day, I want to start in today and not question why or how or when this or that will happen.  If I took today and loved those in front of me and used all my energy to stop the thoughts pounding inside of me maybe then I'd have a moment to breathe, so the here's to this moment. Cheers! 

Birth

I am trying to figure out how this journey started and find the missing places of my soul and bring them back home.  It started at birth and now whats it look like at age 35, I am still wanting to find more. I don't know if I am near the place I am longing for, but I think I am getting closer. One step at a time to the heart of it all.